hahak . PAPI !

hello! many story to tell you now . okay , i am sorry cause long time no update . cause , since now ... i am revising all subject. you know that? cause Primary School Leaving Examination coming. and also , everything change . old things in my life that happen before ... repeats again . sad sad sad . okay , she forgets about me already . news also don't have?? she love to live there . let her be. just don't REGRET . wish me luck on everything that happen to me . Nah , every thing change . understand? so sad . starting from that day on wards , i am in BIG trouble. no transport . have to wake up early in the morning to go aunt house sleep there. you can imagine it? it was suck . just hate being me . get it?? every problems i go through , will be sad . just hope to be happy just now , but .... NAH ! i seriously hate my life . okay . you guys think that all my word is a lie right?? okay , it is not a lie . ONCE I SAY I HATE MY LIFE MEANS IT REALLY HAPPEN . cause i never lie . i deserve all this . i deserve it. okay?? everything i do from stopping it ... it can't be exactly like that ! oh ! you wait i DEAD then you will regret? one word to describe .... ITS TOO LATE . just hate it . how i wish i never ever even born in this earth . i thought i am LUCKY!~ but , no no no ! okay la . no further . later OUT OF LIMITS ... i learnt how to control limits~ kay byebye ,! sweet dreams .! Lurb you all <3

okay .......

Hello apple banana awesome babies there! i am so sad . cause Primary School Leaving Examination is coming . time past so fast , i am just can't get enough with all this . damn worry , but wish me luck !^^ . hope my sisters were here and give me support . ! one , at her friends house while another at Kuala Lumpur . so sad . left with some gorillas here . 2 gorillas already lost at another jungle .! far from my eyes .. you rocker .! so . i think i cannot update further more . cause i needy study ! study study study ! i promise , i will visit you all by saying how is the paper and so on , but , if i free! sorryyy! not mean anything else !

how i wish this does not happen ... seriously .....

Problems again . everyday , every minute and every seconds ...... every thing changed my life . i really right now thinks that no use of trying and all those freaking things . no use of missing and also no use of hopes anymore . cause she really changed to the new her . she does not cares bout me ! how sad right ? my family always have a freaking life .! no use seriously ! 12 years of sisters . and today , i feel i have no sisters . one and one fighting and ends up ?? me??? okay . i feel quiet good of it . yes . can you see me smiling ? but in sadness , no one knows . i spend days thinking bout how to make them okay .. but , i think it does not goes well ! she's going some where far away from me , and runs to her new FAMILY . serious . i no mood to talk bout this . CAUSE EVERYDAY SOME FREAKING SHITS HAPPEN TO ME ! i feel the different way but the others can't feel . last word to say if you are really going some where far away from me . i shall ask for forgiveness , cried all along , think about you , seeing your pictures , become crazy and all those cause i know ....... you can only depend hope on your new family and all your lovely friends .... no further ! bye , got to pleased her . and hope every thing goes okay after this !

yeah yeah yeah yeah . hoped but all ............

Hello ... it's been six month of their relationships . while me? do nothing . just waiting .. i have been loyal to you , how bout you? okay , lets forget all that . throw away all that memories ... but i couldn't . can you? yeah .. of course . you can't waste your time on me anymore. cause you REALLY love her . i was silly of you. but you're silly with her right . i get the point .. hopes can't be trusted . lets rewind ..... first day for me to love you ... difficult to say la . i came with this freaking romantic dream . i dream what i want . what you did to her . you text , smile , laugh , cry , hug , kiss and many more . hoping that will happen to me . you spent most of your time for her . you will miss her . but .... will you miss someone who love you sincerely ? not about anything on you , but heart to heart? yeah . okay fine . you have choose the right route for your life . i was really tired of waiting ....... many more things i can do besides waiting for you;) ! you and her have a happy life . s i x m o n t h s o f l o v e ... can you imagine? you had a fun day along with her .... me? oh meow . yeah yeah . fun yaw . you know? don't right? months later , i go out with you . some where* . hang out with your friends as while as you. that day ...... i LOST everything from you. we fought . no more contacts . from the contacts , i save your name as _____ and now just ... what happen? we made it over ! that was the fun day ever in my life ! yes . i had tried to do what i do earlier . at sch , every tears came out . at home , every hurt , tears , jealousy and many more . what i do? patients . that is what i always do . you only smile . the rest ?? all fly high high away right .? don't you think so? many times i heard from them that you love to go some where far away from sch .. go where ?? d a t i n g . do i get my answer correct ? i could not be that perfect as her . but yes , you leave me away . lets cry . okay . i shall make you have a great day with your love ones . she is pretty , cute and many more . that's why you choose her . okay babe . lets try the new challenges . now , i do not want to ruin your life out. so , at sch .... i can only see you from a far distance . i can glance at you . rather than stare . do you know ? now , i do not have any more idea how to get you . just quiet . can you do the same way as what i do ? but you do to her? hmm? no ? yes? i was really disappointed . Yes . REALLY . topic : today many REALLY i gave to you ... we ...... yeah yeah yeah ..... now , 11:11 . and it repeats again and again .seriously , i do not know what else . lets us together find our couples . Meow,iloveyou♥